why must things be so hard? maybe i should just stop being so truthful. i dont know. do other people have thoughts like this? i cant understand sometimes why i wvwn think the way i do. it’s not like i’m lonely. am i just that bad of a person? i’m starting to think so.
I hate today, I hate feelings and being overly emotional. It’s so draining and I’m just not enjoying who I am or what I want to be right now. I guess I just feel really pathetic. How awesome is that? Sometimes you just don’t have the right words to say to people or maybe the energy and I don’t have the energy..I just feel shitty. Can I just hide or maybe sleep and wake...
No news is good news
As they say no news is good news right? I heard some very disturbing news today and it breaks my heart. My “family” is slowly breaking apart. I feel very helpless so very helpless. I didn’t believe it at first but now I don’t want to believe it but I have to. It hurts me soo much. I know what this feeling feels like its the worst. I’m an outsider to this family...
Gah, I feel sick. My head hurts and I’m so tired. I’m not sure if it’s my meds messing with me or if I’m actually sick. I hate feeling like this though. Just ordered Jimmy Johns and I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to stay awake for the 15 mins I have to wait for them. I have to work tomorrow too blah!
Watching Taken and about to eat tasty brownies!
So I’m afraid I’m not gonna get to go to Full Sail! I’m so upset I want to go so bad. This is something I actually want to do and of course money is stopping me. GAH! I’ve never wanted to do something so much and it’s my dream. I’ve always wanted to do recording arts. Now again stopped…
Munch-Gonna go change my chones
Munch-Ha whatever, you know when they get loose?
has too many questions
wonders so much, dreams of certain things and cant figure out how to let go of others. what do I do? How do I feel ? I cant put it down if i write it down that means it might be true. way too confused